kamnoxious!

It’s been a minute. I’m headed to the west coast this week and this snow storm has left me with too much idle time. My thoughts are all over the place and an idle mind is very dangerous. It seems like I’ve been on this journey for acceptance and happiness for far too long. I have friends and family that love me, so at some point I’ll have to realize that nothing else matters. Why isn’t that good enough? I don’t know. These are the years I’ll never get back and they’re supposed to be the best. Sometimes I think I’m moving too fast, and sometimes it feels like I’m not moving at all. I graduate in a little over three months! That’s something to be excited about, buy I’m too afraid of what’s next. I keep telling myself I can’t live everyday in fear or spend most of my time planning what’s next. I know it’ll make me crazy. I have to take it one day at a time. I’m convincing myself that I can truly be happy with myself and those around me. One of my mentors told me I worry way too much. Very true. If I’m not confident in myself, how can I expect anyone else to be? That’s all.